Thoughts on Life

Hello, blog makeover. Not sure if I like it. It'll probably change from when I post this. So, woo. Anyway, life is pretty good right now. I just got back from a week-long trip to Iowa. I was supervisor/chaperone/van driver to some theater students who were competing for a chance to go on to the next level. It was a pretty big deal, and pretty cool to see what their world is like. Everyone was cool, some were my age, and I think very appreciative to have someone there who would sing along in the car and blast the music, and make sure they got where they needed to go. It was nice to meet people my age. Made a few friends.

I interviewed for a job at the Olive Garden as a hostess. Let them know I wanted to be a server even though I had no experience and they were excited about that. I would get training and to taste all of the dishes/wines. Bonus! Ha. I've always wanted to be a waitress to see if I could do it, and do it well. The woman said she'd call back tomorrow about a second interview. It seemed like she liked me. When people hear that I'm looking for another job, they are very helpful and have all kinds of suggestions. And they're helpful. My professor wants me to ask a woman who is in the Director of Marketing at a local hospital if she's looking for anyone. She is in my class. But, right now I don't want to do that kind of work. I know that I should for the experience, but I just don't want to do it. Is that lazy? I don't think so, and I don't think there is an underlying reason for me not wanting to do it other than that I'm not sure I want to be pushed into this field. All experience is good, but I just am not feeling it right now.

I've always wanted to try being a waitress. I was excited about it. I know I'll stress out, but I can handle it.

My professor today told me that I need to stop working so hard. I bet that made you laugh. But, it's really frustrating to me. I've always had to work hard to be good at what I do. In athletics I had to practice and practice and practice to be as good as I was. In class, I pulled awesome grades but I had to really work at it. Anything I've earned, any recognition I've earned is because I have put my mind to it and worked hard.
Her idea is right. She wants me to be able to write my ideas clearly and quickly. I shouldn't have to take 20 hours to write a 5-page paper. That doesn't fly in the working world. If I didn't have that amount of time available to me to write it, I don't think it would take as long. But, it seems so hard to me to not put all of my effort into doing well at something if I have the time to. She said to go work out or read when I feel like writing and to give myself a time limit. I hate the idea of it. I usually hate change. I usually deal with it. I think this must bother me because it means I'm not good at something. I'm not good at putting my thoughts into writing so that others can understand. A good business professional can.

I also think I hate it because I have a horrible addiction to always being busy. Being idle and unproductive is awful to me.

I know I'm whining, but that's what happens before big changes in my life. I really am a happy kid. Just venting a little of my frustration.

Here's to the New Year!

I haven't posted since I started my new job, so I suppose I should start there. I'm going to make it brief because I have other things to talk about!

I'm happy with the work I'm doing. It is definitely administrative, but I supervise two work-study students and get to talk to them about school and making decisions and developing a work ethic and I really enjoy that. Everyone in the department is nice and very grateful that I am there. I get to help track who we've met with and developed a list with over 3000 names on it for recruiting purposes (that sucked!) and got to coordinate Madrigal Tickets and tables (that was fun!). There really isn't much to report other than that.

I started coursework early because I needed to be able to put my loans into deferment/forebearance. I'm still struggling on that from and am currently trying to pay the interest that accrues during forebearance because I don't qualify for deferment for a few months. I need to find another job (yay!). No one said this would be easy, and it'll build a little character. I don't really anticipate it will be that hard, but I'll be busier than I'm used to. I've grown accustomed to waking up, working out, then going to work. I'll have to squeeze my workouts in at another time.

Anyway, on to the reason for this post.

I'm not really a believer in the New Year's Resolution kind of thing because I think that anything worth doing you should commit to for your own reasons. However, I am interested in creating a list of things that I want to accomplish this year so that I can look back on it and see how successful I was. So here it is.

Run 415 miles this year.
Sew together my T-shirt quilt.
Write 104 pages for my book.
Hit level 85 on World of Warcraft (this one may be a little lofty, and very nerdy).
Develop my ideal business idea into more than just a pipe dream.
Add $1000 to my savings.
Pay $1000 of my loans.
Make a few friends in the area.
Read 10 fiction books.
Find a better way to communicate with my family more regularly.

That's all I've got for now. Maybe I'll add to it as I go. Anyone else care to share some of what they'd like to accomplish this year?