Thoughts on Life

Hello, blog makeover. Not sure if I like it. It'll probably change from when I post this. So, woo. Anyway, life is pretty good right now. I just got back from a week-long trip to Iowa. I was supervisor/chaperone/van driver to some theater students who were competing for a chance to go on to the next level. It was a pretty big deal, and pretty cool to see what their world is like. Everyone was cool, some were my age, and I think very appreciative to have someone there who would sing along in the car and blast the music, and make sure they got where they needed to go. It was nice to meet people my age. Made a few friends.

I interviewed for a job at the Olive Garden as a hostess. Let them know I wanted to be a server even though I had no experience and they were excited about that. I would get training and to taste all of the dishes/wines. Bonus! Ha. I've always wanted to be a waitress to see if I could do it, and do it well. The woman said she'd call back tomorrow about a second interview. It seemed like she liked me. When people hear that I'm looking for another job, they are very helpful and have all kinds of suggestions. And they're helpful. My professor wants me to ask a woman who is in the Director of Marketing at a local hospital if she's looking for anyone. She is in my class. But, right now I don't want to do that kind of work. I know that I should for the experience, but I just don't want to do it. Is that lazy? I don't think so, and I don't think there is an underlying reason for me not wanting to do it other than that I'm not sure I want to be pushed into this field. All experience is good, but I just am not feeling it right now.

I've always wanted to try being a waitress. I was excited about it. I know I'll stress out, but I can handle it.

My professor today told me that I need to stop working so hard. I bet that made you laugh. But, it's really frustrating to me. I've always had to work hard to be good at what I do. In athletics I had to practice and practice and practice to be as good as I was. In class, I pulled awesome grades but I had to really work at it. Anything I've earned, any recognition I've earned is because I have put my mind to it and worked hard.
Her idea is right. She wants me to be able to write my ideas clearly and quickly. I shouldn't have to take 20 hours to write a 5-page paper. That doesn't fly in the working world. If I didn't have that amount of time available to me to write it, I don't think it would take as long. But, it seems so hard to me to not put all of my effort into doing well at something if I have the time to. She said to go work out or read when I feel like writing and to give myself a time limit. I hate the idea of it. I usually hate change. I usually deal with it. I think this must bother me because it means I'm not good at something. I'm not good at putting my thoughts into writing so that others can understand. A good business professional can.

I also think I hate it because I have a horrible addiction to always being busy. Being idle and unproductive is awful to me.

I know I'm whining, but that's what happens before big changes in my life. I really am a happy kid. Just venting a little of my frustration.